GOD.....

They way I think of things is a little different than most people!
I seem to be in a wonder land of "What If's" always thinking, my mind if always working day and night.

I thought of this earlier today:

GOD

"How come my life is so hard, I it is like everyone has an easier life than me."

GOD gave Strong people hard lives, he knew that if he gave weak people easy lives they would not get depressed, and lonely. He gave the hard lives to strong people, cause he know that we can cope with the pain, he knows that we are strong, and he don't have to worry about us. 


Sometimes, I have these's "What If's" like what if my life ended today, or tomorrow... I wonder how I would and will die..... I just never know. I asked GOD for help at one point in my life, GOD did help me but I don't know how he did it. He just magically did it.

I remember when I was little and I was innocent as can be, I had the life, I had my mommy and my daddy. It's all a blur these days, I asked GOD yesterday if my life could be the same as it was when I was little, I asked him why did it all have to change. He told me that everyone has to change, good and bad people. I told him, that "I get that, but my life now is not good at all, I love with my grand mommy my dad is in prison, my mom and little sister and brother live in Michigan with her low life boyfriend."
I asked GOD if he would please watch over my little brother and sister, to make sure they are safe and that nothing happens to them.

I often think I made a mistake, for not moving back to Michigan to make sure Hannah and Chase are safe and are living in great conditions, and have an education. I feel that they need me still, to at least have a provider, someone stable in there life, to show them new things that they can do in life. Should I ask GOD if I made the right decision.

GOD am I a good person? GOD do I need to change?

GOD

Running, Fears, Hope, I just don't know?

         Why am I running? Running away from my fears, away from my dreams, away from everything, Why am I running? I need to run towards my fears, face them to get rid of them, I need to run towards my dreams, to make them come true, I need to run towards everything, to make my life alive! To make something of my-self. To really understand, Why I was put on this earth! There must be a reason, I just have to find it?!?!

       When I find what I am looking for, I will ask my self "What am I going to do now"! I always think to my-self, what am I running from, am  I running from Fear, Hope, Love, Faith, or Happiness, or depression! I have to find a way to cope with my-self, to over-come the fears of coming back!

       Sooner or later, I will be posting parts of my Journal I have so stay in touch!

She's my bestfriend... my everything

She "comes"
She "sits"
She "stays"
She "shakes"
She "fetches"
She hunts,
She "swims"
she there for me, she will never tell my secrects, she listens and never speaks, she my bestfriend,shes my daughter,my sister, she not just a dog, she my family. She watches me in intrest, while I watch her to, shes is my protector, while I protect her. Shes my world, she does everything for me, and doesnt expect anything less than getting her belly rub and maybe a stick thrown or just to take a walk. Sadie is my everything, first thing on my mind when I get up in the last when I go to sleep.

Bus Rides

Bus Rides

My Bus number 09-07, crazy bus all we do is lugh and joke around, fights and stuff, amazing. Jaleal amzing kid little 6th grader, funny funny funny.... Well my bus is like a T.V. show, uh Family Guy, something like that, bring some popcorn cause it is one heck of a show. My bus driver, wow old woman, she is nag nag nag nag nag..... her name is Ms. Owens, big ole woman, she can be funny, I mean she forgot to frop me off at my house, I mean really who forgets about savannah, I am loud , well it was funny, she passed right by my house. Its aswome!!! This is just a weird blog.... 

Your Teenagers questions?

Your Teenagers questions?

Why do you do what you do to me?
(Too many Do's)
How come life gets so hard?
(God doesn't give a hard life to weak people, it just proves your strong)
How do you prove that your not crazy?
(Act smart)
How do you know your in love?
(When you can act yourself around your partner?
How do you tell your parents that you ready?
(Break it down to them)

My life randomly

Savannah's Life

I was born in Mississippi, my ex-father made my family move to Michigan, it is a great place to live, very nice people. I lived there for 7.5 yrs. I made great friends, had the most amazing times with all of my friends, all though I missed my family, I really didn't want to move away form my real family, I had to I was kid I had no choices, jut get in the car and go for the ride. I had boyfriends, first loves, that didn't go very well,  Its along story I'll will blog it later. Now I live in Alabama, away from my friends in Michigan, I live with my grandmother. I am in the ninth grade now, a high schooler, it is alright the crowds are big, you get pushed around, or theres a fight somewhere. i never really stayed in a home, well a house, long enough to call it a home, always moved around, just to different houses. People don't relize how a home really matters in life, I have a home now, I just don't have all of my family, My mother and My sister and My brother. God, I miss them so much. They don't have a home, they live in Michigan, most likely they will be moving form house to house, so they will not have a home. If they just come HOME to alabama with me and our grandmother, they will have a HOME!