Stop Child Abuse!

Hey Ya'll it is me Savannah!

Well I have this page on facebook about Stop Child Abuse well I need ya'll to go to that page and like it and tell your friends about it! There is a reason why I need this to go worldwide, teens need to know that there is people out there that really do care, they just need to have a place where that can go to talk about things, not with an adult but a child to a child. So I am hoping that ya'll will do this for me, Thanks, this page explains eveerything. I will link my URL to this post!http://www.facebook.com/savannahssafehousenetwork

Time

I have been on here in for ever, I guess it is because I am sobusy and i never have time to acually sit and type out a new blog. With basketball and school, I just got bumped up to varsity now, pretty good for a white girl. I am so nervous softball tryouts are coming up, I know I will make the team I just like to have that feeling ofwondering and suspicion. I passed the first half of high school, now I have to pass the 2nd half and then I am going to be a 10th grader, wow it seems like yesturday I was getting eggs form the chicken coop in my baby dipers with my grandaddy. We all have to grow up one day, sometimes I wish I dont have to grow up I would love to be a kid for like ever.

I guess in a way Time growing old teaches all things.

Grandfathers

Grandaddy I love you so much you are my everything, you have done everything for me.
You have right there, and I didn't notice now I have Grandaddy I pray you will be here forever, I do not what will hapen to me if you are gone. I pray that you will walk me down the aile and give me away at my wedding. I pray you will be there when I have my first child.I pray for and about you everyday.

Grandaddy, I don't think you know how much I love you. But I do love you and alot. And nothing will stop me from loving you.

Grandaddy, you are so strong, so handsom, I ma happy you cry, and I am glad you cry I just don't know why I am writing this, but I guess it si because I love oyu so much.

Grandaddy Our connection is amazing, it just is.

There is more too say.....

My Weekend:)

I had an amazing weekend. Get it a-maz-ing weekend... I went to a corn maze Sunday, I got lost but I had fun. Anyways, it all started friday, I got a new phone it is called a LG Octane it is pretty cool. I can take amazing pictures with it. Anyways, Saturday Grandma so&so went trail riding with the horses, well we hitched the horse trailer up and all we had to do was put the jack up, so grandpa so&so decides to keep lowering the trailer. That didn't work it just broke the motor, it is an electric jack so we had to manually put the jack up, wow that took forever. Well we got the horses loaded up and we were on our way, well we get there and we have to get them unloaded and saddled up. My grandma so&so has three horses, Clay a Tenseness Walking Horse; Diamond a Appaloosa/Quarter Horse mix; and Cruise a Tenseness Walking/ Quarter Horse/ Buckskin. We took Clay and Diamond, my grandma had to do something so I had to hold on to Clay and Diamond, that was a hoot Diamond stepped on my foot and Clay was getting antsy, lets just say my foot hurt awhile. But I had fun. We didn't get back home til 6:00 pm we unloaded the horses mucked the stalls fed and watered them, and then on. So it was about 7:00 till we hot inside, were it was warm, and we didn't eat all day so we were hungry. So we were sitting there thinking what we should do, so we decided to go out to eat and then movies and then Wally World. We got in the shower, and the left in the car we saw the new footloose, not the original. The new one was better, but it was 11:00 pm when the movie was over, so we were so hungry basically starving we went to the Village Inn, I was happy to see that big Sand which on my plate. It was 12:00 am when we got done, so then we went to Wally World and lettuce and tomato "fun" it was 12:30 when we got out. After that we went hour it was 1:00 am till we got home unloaded the food and go into our Pj's, 1:30 and I was out like a rock. Lets just say we had fun Saturday. Well sunday was a lazy day, we did go to a corn maze it was so much fun.

Told on Paper...Never heard in Person...

The story of a Girl, Lost in the sea of her thoughts, and writings, she was only 14 at the time thinking suicidal, cutting herself. Who would have thought that she had done them things, No one, because she was just an ordinary small town girl, with a lot of love around her? Maybe a little too much, and a little less love. This is a story of a girl interviewing herself in her room on a piece of paper alone, soon it will go worldwide, on the internet. On this very blog, this story should open your hearts on pain, child abuse, and suicidal children in this cold world, which we all live in. 

I was sitting in my room listening to music so loud you could not hear yourself talk, only loud even to hear yourself think, my mother was deaf so it didn't matter how load the music was, or the T.V. Anyways, I think to my self, sit awhile, and I take the a tons of pill, then loping around. So, I find a long enough rope to go around my neck and I tie it to this thing in my ceiling I put it around my neck. I felt like I didn't belong in this world any more, I felt like I was floating. Tears... warm tears, I was debating whether to go for it or not. For awhile I had the devil on my left shoulder and GOD on the right, devil telling to go for it and The Lord, saying a prayer trying to convince me to stop, he said That I am better than that, I have a wonderful future, playing ball, saving animals, riding horses. I felt like I had a knife to my heart, all the pressure from my abuse, my life, being called names, emotions, all of it was catching up to me all at one time. It was just to much at one time, I didn't know what to do.

BAMMM... Back to reality sitting in my room listening to music so loud you could not hear yourself talk, only loud even to hear yourself think, my mother was deaf so it didn't matter how load the music was, or the T.V.  I look in my mirror; I didn't recognize who was on the other side, from crying make up smeared, eyes red, and to think that I had thought of all of that in just about five minutes. All I can hear now is The Lord, telling that I did a great Job, I made it through the first step, I hear Hannah and Chase laughing so hard they are about to pee there pants. GOD love them, they are too great. I look in the mirror one last time, I recognized who I was, I knew what was going to happen next.

My heart was beating so fast; I couldn't even count my pulse. All I could think about then, was "Why did I just think of all that", "What just happened to me, did my life just change in about five minutes" See, people don't realize how easy it is to kill yourself it really is easy. We the People need to step our game, pay close attention to teens, children, and adults and help them but also not only them but “US” from suicide.

This girl told me that she has been saved, how has she been saved. Family, people that really care about her, counseling, pets.

Funny to think that this girl had just walked away, from what I call "A murder been saved" 

Today went great...Not!!!

Ok, I do my usual thing when I get off the bus go and see April, Christen, Matthew, J.T. and other people. I really never went to see Lance, i mean I like him and all but the relationship isn't going anywhere, just the same old same old. I really don't know what to do, other than just do my usual thing. Well right after I sat down to eat lunch, my friend Candace says Lance is going to break up with you. So, knowing me I would eat my yucky cafeteria food and go and talk to him. Well Lance is the type of guy s=who is too clingy and thinks that we are married and we should be together all the  time. Well I think differently, we are kids we are not married and we just nee to have fun in life. i mean it is High School, I am still learning new things everyday.

So, I go up to him and I said "What the Hell is going on here" well he kind of shut up and let me get things straight. I let him say what he had to say, which he didn't say anything. Lance, the guy who is always saying I love you and what not, does not say anything. He has Nick say everything, like a damn preacher, I just walked off. I said, if you want to talk Lance, then we can talk just don't go and have your friends say everything for you. Be a man and Grow some now!

Well, lets just say "Lance" still hasn't came and "talked" to me yet!

Worrying??

Well I started counseling yesterday, doesn't really bother me much. I like her, I mean i just met her so I don't really know what she's like. I think it will help me get stuff straight now, meaning my emotions and and stuff. I just get worried about what stuff I should say and not say. Cause nowadays it really is serious, I mean what you tell. I just hate being worried all the time.

I am always worrying what and what not to put on this blog, my opinions, my thoughts, stupid stuff pick up lines, quotes and non-sense. I do this for my spear time, starting to get into it more often, I always fantasize about being a writer.Not.... anyways I am afraid I will put something on here that people will get offended and say something, well I guess thats there opinion. Should I just put whatever or should I worry about what to put and worry about what people say. I really just don't know.I just get confused about little things.

So now I don't care what I put on here and what I don' t this blog is for people to read what I have written and to comment there opinions or advice, or just to say great job love it.